in black and white

jillah

i don't know what to think.

it's okay i guess. i finished reading it in 25 hours. 

and since i'm such a good girl, i wont be such a spoiler to  those who haven't read it yet

sorry, no spoilers here. 

jillah

this is perhaps the first time in my collegelife that i actually felt that i'm a student.

behold, i have created myself an acad life!

no more slacking, i said goodbye to long hours doing nothing on the web(i chose not to have internet connection...wow_), i'm actually doing homeworks now, and other acad stuff. and i made friends with some REALLY smart people...and i mean REALLY SMART. gee, i wonder why i naver made friends with them before. now im actually MOTIVATED to study because...ugh...i wanna remain friends with them...haha...

so there, i'm a real student now.

and yey, Hell month is about to end! one last exam this saturday and July is finally over!i made it through six long exams, five problem sets and one machine problem...yey!i can finally read book seven!!

speaking of which, im dead anxious about the last harry potter book, last night i couldn't sleep..haha. spoilers:nakamamatay.

jillah

at dahil jan i'm 'forced' to blog

it has been ages since my last entry, i'm getting the too-tinatamad to blog syndrome again.

what more, wala na akong internet connection. OMG, wala na akong internet connection!!!! waaaah!!!

so here i am, in a really crowded shop, trying to ignore everyone else. nakakamiss na talaga ang dati kong bu/ahay.

oh yeah, it's a whole new place, a slightly different lifestyle, a better outlook,  ...i'm destined for greater things. bwuahahahaha.

then again, why am i here?

was i doomed to be here in the first place? enough said, life can get sweeter, yun lang

 grabe, LAG!!! badtrip

jillah

lasing ako ngayon

hak hak

magsaya

tapos na sana maulit muli, sobrang umiyak sina jasmine pero di ako
naiyak, ewan, predictable na hindi,ang weird, at naaawa ako kay gerald
kung umiiyak, baka kasi mautot sya. pero ayos, napaisip ako in an
il-mare -slash- lake house way... naguguluhan pa rin ako sa
ending.magulo diba? yun na yun?
yun lang.

kmusta mga dudes.

yun lang ulet,

at yung florde-ek ek parang mara- clara. api apihan ang bida nakakabwisit.
at yung rounin, nadudumihan ako sa set. ang dumi. ang dumo, maglinis nga kayo!
at yung walang kapalit asar kasi isang episode lang si sam concepcion
at yung maging sino ka man nababagalan na ako. nakakaantok. si
angelica lagi naka- daster,

hahaha

hahaha, ok na, linamayan ko na ang lecheng 2nd sem na yan
di ko na aalalahanin ang mga hirap at pagod at mga nakakaawang mga
grades na yan. kelangan ko lang magpakalasing sa TV. lintik.

 

jillah

but i have to upload this...

hahaay, drama!...alien pala...

jillah

tomorrow, wednesday: ES11 exam

saturday: [critical] EEE35 exam ( 7:30-10:30)

                 [bahala na si batman]  Math55 exam (11-1)

monday: [kill me] Math 55 finals (9-11)

                  [Lord!] ES11 finals (afternoon daw)

tuesday: [a death wish]  Math 114 finals (3-5)

wednesday (in mortal peril): EEE35 finals (7-10)

                                               EEE23 4th exam (1-4)

i'm scared. have faith. 

jillah

two down, eight to go

i'm definitely in the worse weeks of my acad life. what more with this sinking feeling i've been having for days, weeks... definitely an amazing thing for me to still be fighting. although it did occur to me to just quit more than a couple of times... just let go and stop struggling [ then again, i may not have struggled enough...who knows, maybe i'm liking this oh-so-lonely feeling)... i keep on finding myself in deeper trouble, often getting too painful for me to still feel anger or regret... sometimes i have to bite myself to see if i'm still alive. one crazy gloom.

enough of my death wish.

i'm really looking forward to saturday (who knows, i might finally have the capacity to cry). it'll be fun..i cant blame most of us for not coming though. after all, we just happen to blurt out and decide to have a HS batch reunion in the middle of exams/ requirements week(s), and we went so far as to make it an out-of-town overnight swimming (videoke hurrah!) party... i won't blame anyone of course...still, we could've done away with the out-of-town part...everybody's just too busy...

oh who knows...maybe they're just bluffing us, and they're all coming after all (oh  how i wish)

yun lang...

something vintage [still needs to be photo-shop-ed]